It’s 19 months since my husband passed and every day is still so difficult. Friends and family presume I have moved on with my life and that I’m coping well with a new job. However, I’m still totally devastated and lonely. It would have been our 10th wedding anniversary this coming Thursday. I’m already really upset and don’t want to burden anyone with my true feelings. It feels like I will never be happy again
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Sending you gentle thoughts today, @MissingEsCanar. I hope you feel that you can be honest and share how you’re feeling here - you’re not alone.
You might find our coping with important dates support page helpful to have a read of, too.
Please do keep reaching out 
Please dont think your a burden its going to be hard for you everyday not just special occasions. Im only 7 weeks in and people say how strong i am but inside and on my own its completely different. Keep talking and getting it all out stay strong x
Hi Lynn7. I am sorry for your very recent loss. I totally understand the way that people presume we are ‘coping’. I have tried not to be sad today. We had over 21 years of mad, silly, happiness (and loads of stupid arguments!). I want to celebrate how special our time together was, not wallow in sadness that it’s over.
Hi i know how you feel we were the same we packed so much into the last 15 months its hard to believe hes gone but it doesn’t matter if its 7 wks or 19mths we will work it out somehow. Its not easy to be happy is it but im sure your husband and my partner wouldnt want us to be constantly sad either even though we know we will be many times because so many memories will come and go so be strong you will get there in time sending hugs x