The first anniversary of my mum’s death has just passed a few days ago. I thought I was bearing up (got through the day itself as well as can be expected) but last night I couldn’t sleep for thinking how I’ll cope without my mum in the year ahead, and I’m very anxious and depressed today. I got like this over Xmas too. I cared for my mum in the last 5 years of her life, she was in and out of hospital a lot, and my mind keeps going back to this period. A part of me knows she’s out of any suffering now, but another part of me still struggles to accept that I won’t see her again.
I am sorry to hear of the loss of your mum and that you are struggling.
I would like to share a few resources by Sue Ryder which may be of help to you at this time.
There is a useful Grief Guide that contains information to help you understand and cope with your bereavement and grief. When you feel ready, it would be worth having a look at it.
It might be helpful for you to book and appointment with your doctor to let them know how you feel and to see how they can support you. You may wish to consider one to one Counselling. Sue Ryder offer free online Bereavement Counselling which you may be interested in. It would be worth having a look at it.
There is a blog on Losing a Parent which may be of help and support to you. You can also connect with members here who have been in a similar situation as yourself.
Grief Coach text service, which sends you personalised text support via SMS. This is helpful for family and friends too.
You can connect with members here who have been in a similar as yourself by using the search bar above.
You are not alone, we are all here for you. Please continue to reach out at any time.