I lost my Dad to cancer 3 years ago. At first he was getting on well with his treatment but after a while things went down hill and he passed away. I thought I would have been in bits, but I think I was so numb I barely reacted. I couldn’t cry and just carried on, burying it inside. My family says I was angrier for a time, but I never talked about it.
Now 3 years on I’m suffering with panic attacks. Some really bad ones. They come without warning during the day and wake me up (as right now) in the night. I can’t think of any other cause than it must be related to Dad - and reading these message boards is bringing things flooding back. I miss him beyond measure.
I’m doing what I can to now get help. I have a young family to care for and this can’t impact them. I never thought I’d suffer with a mental health issue like this, but it can happen to anyone.
For anyone else with any similar experience you have my deepest sympathies and support.
Fathers day today and I’ll shower my son with all the love and affection I have, at the same time missing my Dad beyond words.
I suffered major panic attacks when my Mom first became ill then during and after she died
my anxiety was so bad i was frightened to leave the house
i had two paramedic call outs i thought i was dying
i had so many calls to the doctors who prescribed medication
I avoided the meds and decided to try counselling which was a life saver
she taught me some coping skills and breathing exercises and its good to talk
My Mom passed away at home and i was there its the worse thing ive ever been through
it was 15 Months ago just before lockdown and I wasnt able to grieve with my Dad and Brother I thought I would never get through it but things have got better i am learning to accept it
it really is little steps at a time
i hope this helps you a little x
Michael, your story is not uncommon and I know others on this site have the same kind of thing happening and getting help is very sensible. This past year will not have helped and it could be a combination of facts that has started the attacks. There are a number of things that can help you and google may have some ideas including deep breathing excises. There is no same and admitting that you have a mental health problem is great, you have taken a big step so please be proud of yourself and I know you will soon be feeling more like your old self. Sxxx
its never too late to get help from counselling you can carry intense grief for many years
Firstly well done for writing it all done! I miss my dad its been 11months everyone deals with grief differently some days im angry and then i feel guilty for having fun with kids etc all helps by talking about it