33 Weeks today since I lost the love of my life.

External lights flicker in a distant sky
Alan, where have you gone, why did you die?
When I first saw you, you stole my heart
And until that awful day we had never been apart.
I look to the Heavens hoping to see you anew
Where have you gone? I’m searching for you.
My painful cries fill the dark of night
I need your arms to hold me tight.
Where have you gone? Show me the place
So I can once again see the smile on your face.*
We met life’s challenges and somehow made it through
But how do I do it alone without you?
I know you are in my heart, but I long to see your face
Memories of yesterday leave only a trace.
There’s emptiness now that nothing can fill
I so need to find you, so I too can be still.