I haven’t been on in a while so feel like I’m starting again.
Its been 6 months since I lost my mum to bowel cancer. Which in recent weeks has brought it all up again with the bowel babe stuff. Which I do think it’s amazing what she I doing.
Even now 6 months on I still feel very numb. I still don’t know how I have managed 6 months without my mum. I’ve had counselling it helped a little bit. Gave me chance to tell my side of the story as my family never really ask me about it. I have feelings in me which I didn’t know I had. One being guilt.
In the last 6 months I keep getting poorly with bugs and colds. Even now during a heat wave I have a cold. I was just seeing if anyone else has experienced this.
It is a struggle every day still which I know is still early days. But it’s hard as a lot of people have turned there back on me. Not many people talk about my mum either which I struggle with. Where I bring her up all the time.
This grief journey is not easy
I think we all have had experience of people moving on and certainly everyone discovers emotions we didn’t know existed!
For a time when my husband was no longer mentioned, I felt real anger & wondered if people had so little respect for him or myself. I realised it was their problem not mine.
I think your body is reacting to the shock, grief takes on many guises. But if concerned don’t rule out an appt with doctor.
Yeah I have been to doctors had blood tests and stuff all came back clear.
I guess your right I feel anger when no one mentions my mum but then in the next breath people but stuff on Facebook and that winds me up more. People are hard to understand.
Hi I have those bugs and colds lasting and coming back. Your immune system takes a battering when your in grief. And sleep can be affected which doesn’t help. I have been coughing and sneezing even in this hot weather.
After my mum died, one of her best friends talked about the ‘exhaustion of grief’ and it really struck a chord with me. The full weight of the grief is so heavy that sometimes I feel I can hardly put one foot in front of the other. I get tired muscles and general exhaustion all the time, even 18 months after mum died. I think getting ill and run-down is part of the same thing. Grief is such an overwhelming thing to have to bear and manage that it takes its toll physically as well as emotionally.