Its 9 months to the day since my lovely husband and life partner Paul passed.
I put it to the back of my mashed up brain .. until tonight
It seems incomprehensible that I haven’t seen him for 9 months .. somehow it seems longer and yet it also feels like a couple if weeks ago.
Missing him so so much 
I know that feeling I was thinking the exact same today, I said it’s been two months since I saw or spoke to Ron.
I was pushing my shopping trolley along the road and fantasizing about him casually walking around the next corner as if nothing was wrong it made me happy for a minute, then back to harsh reality.
Take care x
You too 