A year has past

So its been just over a year since i lost my wife to cancer, I thought I was doing well but now im back to the start, all the memories, feelings, vivid flashbacks and awful nightmares, my emotions are all over the place and staying in control is soo hard(crying) i keep being told it takes time and its only been a year but screaming in to a pillow so no one can hear my pain is wearing a little thin.


My wife passed away five weeks ago.
We have to believe that time will mask the pain.
Only people that have been fortunate enough to have had a great love could possibly have an inkling of how it feels to lose their soulmate.
I imagine grieving is different and unique to each person, i think we have to remember that our lost partners would want us heal and continue to make them proud.