10 months today, and still living in a daze. Seems hard to accept
I don’t recognise myself anymore
I function for the kids but I’m not living im existing
Can anyone else relate to these feelings
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Hi , it’s over two years since my husband died , and I have only just started to accept this is my life now and my husband can’t come back and make everything ok again . I’m definitely a different person now . What is a shame , I did actually like the other me . I can’t say it gets easier but we adjust to this new different way of living . Xtake carex
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4 months for me. I am definitely not living but existing. Paul was my joy so my life now is grey and mirthless. I don’t think I will ever be happy again so I’m realistically just looking at ‘content’. I’m also so lonely. Paul loved me and accepted me as I am. His family and my ‘friends’ abandoned me when I fell apart after his death. That just reinforced that I can’t be open with people, trust them with my feelings/thoughts. They don’t accept me. This meant that I put protective barriers up to keep people away before they, too, could hurt me. But that also makes me lonely and feeling ‘unacceptable’
What a mess!
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Thank you for posting this. You cannot understand how important it is to those still in the wild throes of grief to know that it is survivable. Sometimes I think I’m going to drown in the grief and depression and loneliness and ‘what’s the points’. You let us know that it is possible to survive this.
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@Reality , thank you for your kind post . I was exactly like you , I would plead and beg for my husband to come and get me . I really didn’t think I could continue without him . But the hours turned into days / months / years . I always said I was existing not living . And I was a no one in a nothing life . Now I accept that I have to keep on going . Till it’s my time to be with my husband again . I don’t think of the future . It’s to scary . I love and miss my husband so so much and always will . Thank you again it helps me as well . Xtake carex
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