I lost my Mum almost 10 years ago now to Pancreatic Cancer - I was 13 at the time. It was the worst time of my life and I still don’t think I have ‘Recovered’ to be honest, I don’t think I ever will. I was left in the care of my sister but things were not great and eventually at the age of 16 she kicked me out of the family home. Luckily, my boyfriend and his parents took me in (2012) and we have never looked back. The only family I have left is my Aunt (my mums sister) who unfortunately, lives in Australia. I visited her for the first time at the end of 2016 and it was a dream come true. I have never felt so close to Mum since she died and leaving felt like starting the grieving process all over again.I have been back over a month and it still hurts knowing that we are so far apart. I feel as if I want to go back, just for a little bit longer, just to spend time with the closest thing to a mum and be apart of my own family again. My work has said I can have 3 months off towards the end of this year to go and be with my family. This is literally a dream come true - however, my boyfriend and his family are not so supportive. They think it’s weird that I want to go for that long and that I am being selfish. Am I? My boyfriend has said he will support me but he’s not acting that way. I just want to be close to my mum again and for longer than 3 weeks and my auntie really brought back all of the amazing memories that I had forgotten over time.
I would really appreciate honest opinions and for someone to tell me if they think I am doing the right thing or not. I have spent the last 10 years putting everyone before myself and now I feel like this is what I need to do, to be able to move on with my life.
I love my boyfriend very much and want to spend the rest of my life with him, but i feel this needs to be done now at 23, rather than 10 years down the line when we have a mortgage and a baby and a lot more stresses.
Help please. This is the most confused and feeling like a little girl again I have in a long time
Thank you X