My mum sadly passed away a few weeks ago. Im one of 9 siblings and none of them helped her whilst she was still here. She looked aftet my sister full time as she is disabled . I tried my best to help as much as I could but now she has passed away from a heart attack, everyone is coming to my dad and mums acting like they care. When they hardly came when she was here only to borrow money from her or use her as a creche to drop their kids at. My mum was the most endearing kind angels you could meet. But I cant help feelinh angry all the time with my family for not making any effort with her whilst she was here but now she has gone suddenly they appear. Im not sure how to navigate my emotions at this point. I have ADHD and anxiety/depression already . And work is another stress as I have no annual leave left and am being unpaid at the moment but as a nurse I cant face dealing with death at the moment as I do alot of work with palliative care such as verification of death etc. Im running on autopilot and so burnt out. 
I just cant accept that she is never coming back.
Hi @Queserasera,
Thank you for bravely reaching out. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. You are not alone. I’m not sure if you’ve seen our Losing a parent category. But there you can connect with other members who are living with grief after losing a parent.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support to you. In the meantime, you might find these Sue Ryder resources helpful to read.
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Our Losing a parent page talks through some of the emotions you may be experiencing
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Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
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Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through
I hope you find the community to be a support to you. Take good care and keep reaching out 
Alex
I lost my dad last year and my mum this August! I too am a nurse and cannot face work! Be kind to yourself and put work to the back burner for now you will know when you are ready xx