I’m feeling bad because not only am I feeling the usual devastation after my husband died, I’m also struck by absolute rage that he ‘left’ me. This does not feel normal and doesn’t actually sit well with me as he would normally have done pretty much anything for me. Why the anger?
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Oh its part of grief … google it 
honestly i was so angry too … i don’t think everybody gets it … some dont get angry but i was so mad too … so angry that my husband was taken … i still feel it sometimes , in fact i had a good shout today !!! i hope neighbour didn’t hear me ! But actually i dont care if she did … i often hear her shouting at her kids ! Lol … xxx
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Part of grief … i was same and still get angry sometimes 
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I try not to get angry as it saps my energy, however at the funeral and wake I did get , let’s say extremely annoyed, by colleagues who praised her and said what a wonderful work colleague she was when I know for sure, as she often told me, that when she was alive they didn’t support her and often did their best to try to show her up ( basically she was tons better at her job than they were and they were jealous of her). I felt like telling them to do one but instead overdid my kindness towards them.
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I can understand my anger that he died but my anger is actually directed AT him for dying! In a ‘how dare he leave me here alone’ type rage! I’m not alone as I have a brilliant core group of friends but when something goes wrong that I can’t deal with I find myself cursing him out for not being there.
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Yeh i have heard that too … a bereavment counsellor said that to me … some people are angry with their partners that they have gone. Ive had that a bit but mainly i was just angry he had gone angry in general … it will.pass you know … … its early days for you xxx
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i was so angry the day after mine died that i cleared his bedroom out,everything got thrown. i blame him as he could have sorted the problem with dr a few days before and this would not have happened. as for funerals i hate them, we never had one as i think they are all a farce, people lying about the person, the ones who couldnbt have given a sh*& about them whenthey were alive
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Hi Yiv, I can relate to this so much. I find myself furious at my husband for leaving me and his son even though our son is 23. I know it is illogical but I can’t help it. It calms down sometimes and then I will get angry with him again for no reason. I have been told this is part of the process but then I feel guilty. None of this makes sense. Xx
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I feel anger but not at my partner. He didn’t choose to leave me. He would be here if he could. He had no choice, he didn’t even know he was going to die.
Anger is one of the natural parts of grieving and is perfectly normal. I lost my partner on the 29th July, he had only just turned 69, 8 years younger than me and he had a massive heart attack and despite the best efforts of the ICU team for a week he was unable to survive. I had been told that if he did survive he would not have been fully fit and would probably need dialysis as his kidneys were damaged. I know he would have hated that, he had a deep fear of hospitals and suffered badly with anxiety and panic attacks. For his sake it was probably as well that he didn’t survive but that doesn’t make his loss any easier to bare. I go through feelings of guilt that I couldn’t save him, anger at life and at him for leaving me. The loneliness is so strong and the pain in my heart is overwhelming.
So go with your feelings, they are all normal and I just hope that as time goes by we can all get less bad days and the positive days grow stronger
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Yeh i feel sad he didnt go to drs too earlier as i think he knew something was wrong … so did i tbf but i shouldve gone too for him but its hard when its not clear … but also maybe he was scared too you know.? Dont be too angry with him because im sure he didnt want to leave this world … xx
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Wise words indeed … my husband had just had his 60th birthday … so sad i cant believe all the feelings we go through … i often think where did that come from. Those feelings of loss are really terrible though … never felt anything like it in my life ! Losing your husband, your soul mate is the worst xxx
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