Anniversaries can be so difficult & painful
Why does it hurt so much
My baby twins anniversary was yesterday
Lost twins long time ago
Most almost everyone forgot or they donât say anything
Ive not forgotten
Went to cemetery during wk got big bubble baloon with pure white feathers and there names etc on it with fluffy little white squirrels for birthday Christmas
Decided to release 2 heart baloons last night in my garden to mark there birthday
So they know I didnât forget
Get this funny feeling inside and this emptiness thought was going cry in front of my son
But kept it together until last night listen to sad songs had good cryđ
Got me thinking how much I wish they were here but there not
And my dad
My dad died this year
Tried write something in book of remmembrance but mess it up paid for postal order I called them they said didnât receive now to late book away to London
Missed entrance Valentineâs Day next year for my dads birthday
Some days feel ok other days think what a fuckin year
Sorry
Mum in law diedâ¤ď¸
Dad diedâ¤ď¸
Exhusband move back in
No job
My twins anniversaryđ
Just donât feel can talk to family about it
Still see my mum & carer to my son/daughter whom I love very much
Just finish my counselling on Thursday
In tears now just emailing thidđ˘
Just want my old life back the way things used to be but canât change the past.
Getting house for Xmas put up tree soon get my carpet fitted today
But today not feel great hurts so much inside feel part of you is ripped out
I know sounds crazy
Sorry for going on and on and on xxâ¤ď¸
You have every right to cry crying is good for you . Sounds like you have had more than enough on your plate . I have got my husbands birthday coming up which will be the first one without him and so will Christmas and if Iâm honest Iâm dreading them both, but they will come no matter how my feelings are or how I will cope with them. Unfortunately we have to carry on but we carry the memories along with us and no one can ever take them away. Donât be afraid to cry in front of your son because Iâm sure he is grieving too and he probably feels he canât cry in front of you too .
Donât ever feel alone in all of this grieving process you are going through keep messaging on here I have taken a lot of comfort from my post on here itâs only been 10 weeks for me without my Rob . Keep chatting I will be here whenever you need a chat take care stay strong and safe x Clarence
Donât know where the name at the end came from sorry