The anniversary of her death is chasing up on the 31st of July it’s going to have been 3 yrs since she died then and I keep having nightmare every night of the night she died I don’t think I’ll ever be okay again tbh I’m not getting scared to go to sleep all I see is her little face and her brown curls and then my brain zones in on her purple cold skin and I don’t know what to do these. Nightmares r putting me in a bad place again but my family r healed and r ‘over ‘ her death yet I feel stuck in this rut it’s like a on going loop of grief anger and the longing to join her yet ino i have plans in life and I have to honour her by staying alive but this battle im facing in my life for the past soon to be 3 yrs is a hard one infact hard doesn’t even cover it
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I’m so sorry for the death of your niece, @A.Gittens. I’m just giving your thread a gentle bump for you - you are not alone.
A Gittens
I advise you to go and see your GP or a counsellor. It sounds like you have ptsd. I am waiting for emdr therapy for ptsd. I have regular counselling to help me with the sudden and unexpected death of my daughter, but still can not get the image of her dead on the floor when I found her.
Sending hugs
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