Hi Absent, you both look so happy. My wife and I got married three years later this March would have been 40 years for us. I hope you have a peaceful day
Wishing you all the best
Tom
We were happy and content. No pleds, 43 yrs complete happiness. Actually 45 yrs together.
It’s been very hard passed few days. And has shocked me how much as I was starting to surface.
He was a massive Arsenal fan. So last night’s result added to my sadness. As he would have been so happy. Would have have been easier if they were middle table this year. But obviously I am pleased they are champions, as I love footie too! Just couldn’t share it with him!
I am exhausted and so very sad.
Hi Absent, I am so sorry to hear your suffering. My wife and I had been together 41 years. To have had so much love is a blessing. I hope you find some peace.
Wishing you all the best
Tom
What a beautiful photo of you both 
A beautiful picture of a beautiful couple!
Such anniversaries are very hard.
Sending some strength your way!
Kind regards - Joe
I sometimes wish I wasn’t as sensitive, philosophical, or as sentimental as I am.
Maybe, I wouldn’t feel so much pain??
One minute, I was the happiest person alive, with everything to look forward to… I blinked, and my entire world had collapsed around me.
How fragile life is… what is it actually all about?
I just can’t see a way forward, and nobody gets it.
Can’t pretend to be ok… I’m sad, lonely, depressed, hopeless and despairing.
I’m 59 and feel my life ended when my Michael’s did last June.
My beautiful little cat passing away on Friday, unexpectedly, and in tragic circumstances has “knocked me for six”.
I’ve also got my Mum’s 9 year anniversary on Monday.
It’s all too much.
Eve x
I completely understand Eve. You’ve had another terrible loss in the last week, piled on top of what you’re already dealing with. Isn’t life so hard, isn’t our lives just so hard right now.
Like you, I’m in complete despair at the loss of my kind beautiful husband, I don’t know how I’ll ever be right again. He was my favourite person in the whole world, who understood me and always supported me, no matter what. I loved spending as much time as possible with him. Now what’s left? Nothing that I can see.
I can’t see a way forward at all. I’ve taken the week off work as I just can’t deal with it at the moment. Fed up is an understatement.
Thinking of you x
Thank you for your reply and for your understanding.
I’ve taken the week off work too, I just can’t deal with all this pain and heartache.
I know exactly what you mean, I really do.
Can’t seem to get myself together, and I don’t know why everything seems so “alien” to me… NOTHING is as it was, everything has changed, including me.
I just don’t recognise anything… this “life” anymore.
What happened to my old life… where did it go?
My Michael was my best and only friend in the world and we were everything to each other.
Just like your Ray, Michael was the kindest, most loving, caring, understanding, supportive and encouraging person in the world.
We knew each other so well, we didn’t even need words to know what the other was thinking.
We were always together, did everything together, and Michael always had my back, making me feel so happy, safe, and secure.
We loved and adored each other and he would have walked through broken glass for me, without any hesitation.
I just can’t see how this can, or will ever change?
I’m not interested in anything at all anymore… I’m surrounded by nature and beautiful surroundings, but what does it matter, if I don’t have my soulmate to enjoy/share it with.
I hate this utter loneliness and emptiness, and disconnection from the world and everything in it.
It will be a year in 3 weeks, and I feel things are only getting worse for me, with the passing of time.
I don’t have the “stomach” for trivial/small talk anymore, or pretence.
I miss my lovely Michael, our beautiful life, chats, friendship, conversations, togetherness, and companionship so much… more than I can put into words.
Michael should still be here, living his life.
Sending you a big hug and complete understanding.
Eve x
Your words are all that I feel, all what we had.
Hello, I feel the same way, ive lost my husband, my best friend, he was my person. When he died a part of me died too, he took a big part of me, my hopes. My dreams, a sense of belonging, he was my travel buddy, we’d go antiquing together, he was the person I wanted to be with the most. It hurts hes gone 
take care every one
Beautiful xx
so very sorry to hear about your husband he would’ve been so happy Arsenal winning in the league, I’m a supporter of the Other North London club and we’re not having such a good time with it, but grief unites us all, my late wife was born in Leeds so she was a Leeds United fan, she sadly passed away before they got promoted to the Premier League she would have been so happy. Anyway, take care of yourself., and I’ll be rooting for you in the Champions League final.
I think anyone of us could have written these last few posts,we are all have the same emotions but our own personel story. I think I am only just starting to realise that this is it . No going back,no hope,it has happened ! What happens now? How do you go on? Just fill in the time? I wasnt filling in time before,I was living a good life. I want it back. I know I cant but I do. Everything lost and pointless. Not a good start to the day! Hate weekends!!!
At 59, I was 58 when my Michael was taken from my life… I feel exactly the same… I could have written your post, word for word.
I was living an amazing life with my beautiful soulmate, full of happiness, hope, positivity and we were looking forward to the future, with so many dreams, hopes and plans.
What now??
As you say, just filling in time, and for what?
I’ve never known such sadness, emptiness, loneliness, despair and hoplessness.
I feel physically sick all the time, and I just want my amazing soulmate and the life we shared back.
I know there’s no going back, but I can’t believe or accept this tragedy.
What was once a fairy tale dream is now a living nightmare, with no escape.
Eve x
Now that is the most kind thing to say being a Spurrs fan. Actually means sooo much thankyou. Only a footie fan would understand me saying that! 
so sad we are!
Yes weekends are getting harder!
Hello heartofgold, so sorry how you are feeling, but you described perfectly what I am feeling, so many plans that my husband and I hoped for, now there’s nothing, when you said the emptiness, yes that’s exactly it, im empty inside, I really have nothing to look forward to. I want the life I had with my husband. Take care and may God bless you
Dear @HeartofGold and dear @Lightmary68 ,
yes, regrettably it is just the way you described it.
Without the beloved soulmate everything is so bleak and empty.
But they are still with us, the bond between soulmates loving each other is indescribably strong.
They are watching out for us from Heaven and they are patiently waiting for the reunion which will be for eternity.
Wishing everyone an agreeable evening!
Kind regards - Joe
This is comforting but still brings tears:
