It’s 7 months since I lost my lovely husband. I met him when I was 17 and we had been married for 52 years. I am doing my best and plodding on with some sort of life but I do find that I am getting increasingly anxious over stuff, just life stuff really. It is so annoying as it affects my sleep and health. Does anyone else feel like that? Yet I coped with everything when he was really ill.
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Hi. I lost my partner 6 months ago and my anxiety is very bad. I worry about every little thing. He was always there to put things into perspective and comfort me. Being on my own with everything really is hard. I get panic attacks too. Sending you hugs. LJ 
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Thanks for your reply.It is horrible isn’t it. Sending hugs to you too.
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Hi and sorry for your loss. I too suffer from from anxiety since my partner died 10 months ago, it’s horrible but apparently it’s common when you’re grieving someone. I get overwhelmed really easily especially when I have to deal with technology. I hate having to deal with the all the problems the house is throwing at me. My partner dealt with most maintenance issues, now I m on my own and have to get trades in. I’ve resisted medication so far but I don’t want to feel like this for much longer. Take care.
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Hi @Diane64
Your post struck a chord with me, I get far more anxious about things since I lost my wife.
I think part of it is not having anyone to discuss things with, which makes even small issues into major concerns.
The other thing I’ve found is that tasks that would normally have been second nature to me now fill me with self doubt. People often say about a lost partner that they took part of me with them, well I’m sure part of my spirit left with my wife.
Plodding on with some sort of life describes it perfectly.
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Dear @RJay and @Diane64 , I feel exactly that, a part of me left with my husband when he died. My husband made me feel confident and I always knew his strength was backing me. Now that he’s gone, simple things like sorting car insurance become a challenge. I fully agree, “plodding on with some sort of life” is a perfect description!
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Hi. it is terrible and can be debilitating too, I’m trying ways of curbing it but it’s really hard at the moment. Take care LJ
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Hi Diane,
First of all you are brave to reach out. Grief, I find, comes in waves and I am recently feeling panicky and a bit scared. I lost my parents, I was their carer, I am alone so they were my world. I too coped through the ‘tough times’. Now I’m completely lost. I feel you’re pain.
Very best wishes, Nicky
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Postscript. When I say I coped, I did, i got thru, but it was like wading thru mud and so scary. I was alone, still am…….
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Hi I lost my husband almost 5 months ago, we were married for 35 years, and this new life without my precious husband is no life at all, like every thing has lost its sparkle, nothing interests me , i feel lost and empty, my husband was a big part of my life, now hes gone and he took a big part of me with him..
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Dear Diane
Like you I have spent almost my whole life with my wonderful husband, we met when I was 14, I’m now 66.
Plodding on is what we must do but it’s not easy. I’m okay with the practical stuff although I give myself a two minute cry when I have to tackle things I’ve never done before. I’m selling our beautiful home and moving to a small bungalow which I’m finding terrifying. I’ve never made decisions on my own, I doubt myself all the time. And now I need an operation, something else that wouldn’t seem half to scary if Stephen were here.
Luckily my GP has referred me for counselling, I’m hoping this will help. Would this be something that you might consider? I think we have to try anything that makes our lives a little easier x
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Hi, and sorry for your loss. I’m ten months in now following my partner’s sudden death, and I feel the same way. I mourn for him and for that laid back person I used to be when things were good. Today’s a bad day for me, I’ve just returned to the empty house from having lunch with family. Even when I was out I felt as if I was going to cry but I managed to keep a lid on it. How do I actually survive this world which has nothing to offer me?
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Hi Norma, im sorry you’re having a bad day today, I was pretty bad a few days ago., I didn’t want to get up , nothing interests me, i just want what I cant have anymore, I lost what was so precious to me, how do I move on from that.?..i know I hafta live, but the world seems grey now.. Hopefully ill start feeling better someday, im still fairly young, i just turned 58, but I can’t see myself with anyone else, my husband was my everything..
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Hi @Norma1
That is the problem with going out! It is a welcome break from the isolation we find ourselves in, but we have to return to it.
I went out for a haircut this morning and had a nice chat with the barber, but when I got home the emptiness was still here waiting for me!
I keep trying to raise some enthusiasm for the hobbies I had before I lost my wife but the interest has gone. The only thing that holds my attention is anything to do with spirituality.
The postman has just delivered two books by Sophia Grace which I’m looking forward to reading. Ever since I lost my wife I feel she is still with me and trying to make contact, unfortunately my receivers aren’t tuned in! Maybe I’m clutching at straws but I’m not giving up until I’ve given it a good try. Some days I’m beyond hope but reading these books does lift my spirit and until something else comes along it’s all I’ve got.
Keep plodding on everyone!
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Hi @RJay I can relate so much to what you say. I used to play piano before my husband died. I can’t muster the concentration to seat in front of the piano and try to practice. Instead read books and watch videos on death bed visions and near death experiences because thinking I will one day be again with him is the only thing that keeps me going! Wishing you a good evening and hope you have some moments of calm today
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I never suffered from any type of anxiety before but now, in the 6 months since my husband died, I find everything just so stressful, even the things I would normally do without thinking.
The thought of trying to get tradesmen in to do the jobs that Paul would normally do is just wrong.
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Hello Rosie59, im so sorry for the loss of your husband, I lost my husband in March, we’d been married 35 years..i know what you mean about having to look elsewhere in order to get things done around the house. I had to call a plumber at 9 pm a few weeks ago,..and just having to do things on my own now is very stressful. 
..take care of yourself and God bless you 
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I also can relate. My husband died 3 months ago and I seemed to cope ok the first 8 weeks but then 4 weeks ago out of the blue I couldn’t breath and thought I was going to pass out. The doctor said it was my nervous system telling me it had had enough. My husband had been very poorly for a long time and I nursed him. In that time I had 2 big bowel operations. My doctor prescribed mirtazapine and to take diazepam until the mirtazapine kicked in. The doctor also organised some counselling which I start next week. I didn’t want to go down that road. I tried to cope on my own, but the panic attacks as people know on this side are just not pleasant and I don’t wont to keep feeling like this. It is a 1 week since I went to the doctor. I will keep you informed how I progress. Thinging of you all, Emma
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@Anita_66
Since my wife’s death I seem to have taken a step back from this world. It seems less real somehow and that might explain my lack of interest in the old things.
I think Dr Raymond Moody’s books show us, very convincingly, that there is a wonderful universe beyond this world and The Source, God, The Light, call him what you will, is keen for us to be inquisitive.
Have you read ‘Making The Afterlife Connection’ by Suzanne Giesemann? She is a retired US Navy Commander who lost her step-daughter in a tragic accident. She felt, like we do, that her lost loved one hadn’t moved far away and was leaving little signs and messages for her. The book tells about her quest to make contact including becoming a medium.
I’m not sure I want to be a medium but a conversation or two with my wife would make such a difference to my life. The book I’m just finishing ‘Quantum Physics and Spirituality’ appears to show that scientifically the theories stack up, which is encouraging.
I think the first step is to persuade ourselves to expect miracles.
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Hi @RJay yes, since my husband died I’ve also taken a step back, and things that mattered are now irrelevant. Meditating on heaven and the wonderful experiences from NDEs and DBEs really has made a difference to me - and yes, we do need some miracles to go through this awful pain and sorrow.
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