I suddenly lost my husband of 53 at Christmas. Yesterday I felt I had a bit of normality as had my cousin come to visit and my best friend. I did us a nice lunch something I haven’t done since my hubby passed. Last night my son went out with work colleagues and I was waiting for him to call me so I could go and pick him up. Before my husband died I would go to bed and my son would make his own way home by taxi but now I can’t sleep till he gets home. Anyway the door bell went early this morning and 2 responders had brought a extremely drunk son home. I thank them and they told me that my son told them about losing his dad. This broke my heart. All I ever wanted was a simple life which I had with my lovely husband and son and now it has all been ripped apart. I can’t stop crying. Hate this life so much.
Hi @Hazel.1966 I’m glad that you had a nice day with your cousin and friend. But it was unfortunate that your evening was tinged with sadness and upset. Me and my husband never wanted much. We liked our yearly holiday but apart from that we lived a simple life never craving expensive cars or anything like that. I’m like you now. I hate my life now my husband has gone. Sending you a hug.X
Thank you @Loobyloo2 my husband and I enjoyed our holidays as we both worked hard and found our holidays a time for us. Our last holiday just before my husband died was in Sorrento celebrating our 25th wedding anniversary. We said we be back for our 30th anniversary. Sadly never going to happen 
Aw hazel … hes just upset about hid dad - its just a reaction. Poor lad … just give him lots of love 
Thank you @Deb5 it’s so hard as we are both grieving in different ways. I cry all the time and my son is very inward. I guess he was letting the grief out last night. So heartbreaking to see him suffering 
Yes i dont think they can talk about it very well can they ? Im like you i just cry 
but i think maybe when they younger they bottle it up ? My daughter who was so close to her dad really won’t talk about him which i find really strange ? I mean just cos you dont talk about it doesn’t mean it didnt happen does it 
I thought their generation was more clued up than that ? Your son only in his 20’s though isn’t he ? Bless him x