since I lost my wife suddenly 2 months ago, I dont know how my life will be from now on. I miss her every single minute of every day, if I go for a walk I miss her by my side if i go shopping it makes me so sad knowing how much she always wanted us to be together. I just cannot imagine life without her, its not company I crave its her. I have no friends no offspring, and elderly siblings.
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I’m sorry for the loss of your wife, your love for her jumps from the page.
You are in the very early days and I’m sure will still be in shock, try not to look too far into the future at the moment, as they say the future can look after itself.
For the moment just try to take it day by day? In respect of grocery shopping I stopped shopping at our normal supermarket for a while, it was too painful going automatically to certain aisles to pick up my husbands food etc..
I take comfort that my husband didn’t have to go through all of this.
bless you for your kind words
So very sorry for your loss & finding yourself here but it’s a very supportive place to be. No one can take your pain but you can talk, rant, cry here & hopefully that will help you a bit.
I lost my husband 4 months ago. I am overwhelmed by the loss, I cry all the time & even though I do have support no one else can really help because grief is such a personal thing.
Keep coming on here & telling us how you feel & hopefully we can help you somehow.
Sending much love 
thank you for your kind words
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Pete72
I am soo sorry you lost your wife I lost my husband 6 months ago we are soo in love everyone stops me on the dog walk telling me he used to say how much he loved me of course I knew we just needed each other no friends just each other my pain is much worst now you are numb at the start but now I remember the pain the suffering at the hospice the words we said and the horrific ending i cry for him all the time I do keep a daily diary where I TALK TO HIM IT HELPS.
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My wife passed away 6 months ago. We were together 33 years. We only had each other as friends and no family here. In the beginning is was horrible. I cried every day and didn’t know what to do. Slowly, I started taking care of myself by eating right and walking every day, in spite of my sciatica. I try to get out of the house as much as I can, because when I come home it is so lonely. I joined a video chat support group that meets twice per month. All the people at the group lost their spouses. No one can truly understand your pain unless it happened to them. Now, six months later the pain and crying is still there, but not quite as often. I also get tears in my eyes sometimes when I go to the grocery store and see items she liked. Sometimes I even cry while driving and see a restaurant we used to eat at. I don’t think the pain ever ends, but if you take care of yourself, join a support group, and do things like walking or chores to take your mind off of it sometimes, you get a break from it.
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thank you for your thoughts, so much of what you say is exactly what I am experiencing now, such as the shopping, restaurant and the crying, I have asked for counselling but have been told there is a waiting list, I am dreading what’s to come xmas etc I don’t see me ever getting a break from it. take care
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Hi l know exactly what you are feeling l lost my husband best friend in October this year he was ill for a while but still came out to the local town centre when he could l miss him so much 
and can’t imagine life without him
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Hi Dia. Things will usually get somewhat better with time, I’m told. For me, it has. The first few months were the hardest. It’s a little less intense now, six months later, but still hard. Since I am all alone, I think it makes thing even harder. If you have family and friends nearby, getting out of the house to see them often would help.
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Im sorry for your loss pete,I lost the love of my march 24,i felt the same way,still do,its something you never expect to happen to you,i was in a state of” no this is not happening “ its still very raw for you,i use supermarket delivery i still do,i dont go out much,all my family live away so much like you its loneliness aswell,this site is a big help to us all,I check in now and again,its good to chat now,but was hard before,this will be my 2nd xmas without him,theres no xmas feeling anymore. Its his birthday aswell xmas day,that makes it worse, take care,reflect on your happy memories,she will be looking down on you,there’s always someone on here to listen,ive screamed before now,had a rant.you take take its early days don’t be like me and lock yourself away,i get out once a week to visit a friend in a care home,stay safe and keep busy if you can xx
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thankyou for your kind words, it helps me to know that I am not alone in my suffering and I take comfort from that, I just want xmas and new year to be over, every new years eve we would wait for the chimes and toast with a glass of wine kiss and express our love, so I am dreading it this year. Love and best wishes.
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Hi lm sorry for your loss and l know exactly how you are feeling and it’s not nice at all my husband passed suddenly in October this year and he always done the Xmas dinner and wouldn’t allow anyone else to in the kitchen my daughter her husband and there 2 grown up children would come and we would do the same on new year eve and then go to bed so lm looking forward to Xmas and the new year take care
I lost my lovely husband too 6 months ago & am finding it harder now. Maybe because of Christmas. He was so strong & told me I must carry on for my children & granddaughter, but so hard. The darker evenings don’t help either without somebody with you. I also write a little something to him also every day x
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It’s so hard my husband passed October this year l just feel lm living in a nightmare l want to be strong for my children but it so hard
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I hardly know what to do with myself, I have enough on my mind with so many regrets without Christmas popping its head up. The only time I’m not crying is when I’m sleeping, if I don’t get some help soon I think I’m going to go mad, nothing prepares you for any of this, grief is the loneliest place on the planet.
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That’s so true lv never experienced anything like this in my life and although you might have some family and friends it’s still terrible when you’r on your own but try stay strong
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I have wonderful family & friends, my best friend lost her husband in the same way but even she said she couldn’t really help because each relationship is different so the grieving will be different. It really is an on your own thing 
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Yes l can understand that one of my friends lost her husband and she likes going out and on holiday’s but l don’t want to leave the house