Shabelabob.i have no respect for macmillan after the way they treated my gorgeous beautiful late wife sue who sadly passed away on the 1st February 2023 due to pancreatic cancer which had spread to her lungs and liver.the nurse came to see us both and she was abrupt and just said there was nothing could be done for sue and walked out of the room. The nurse who was attached to lyndsey lodge hospice scunthorpe where sadly sue spent her final days here was the only macmillan nurse i will respect as nothing was too much trouble. This community is a big help to me
Hi @Martyn2 sorry to hear what happened to your wife, i too didnt have much help if any from Macmillan, but agree this community is a great place for support, take care x
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Hi ya , ken oxford your loss is so recent so sorry for your very very sad loss . My loss was in feb my wife ann had vascular dimentia over 5 years , take your time day by day , sort out all that needs doing , money , saying good bye ,and by know you may think you cant carry on , you can ,l ken have just finished 10 councilling, that s grief of course .Maybe that will help even as a chap l still cry and so much more talking is good , just going for a walk helps , very best to you on this journey we are here to support you , you had 11 years l am again sorry thinking of you , ken
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Itās with extreme sadness that my wonderful wife Sally lost her battle with cancer and passed last night at 11.48pm. 10 months after surgery , 7 months chemotherapy, 2 months observation to see how the secondaries were behaving the just over one month palliative then end of life care at home. I am shattered beyond belief. I thought I was coping when one of Sallys best friends gave me a letter that Sally wrote just before surgery last September . I lost total control and wept like I have never wept before and trust me I have wept my share during the past month of caring for my darling wife at home .
I really donāt want to go on , Sally is everywhere apart from being actually here. Itās the worst feeling I have ever had and if this day one not sure if I can cope
Sorry I am desperately lonely, nobody gives me anything like that secure or cosy feels I had even when Sally was alive but suffering . Now with her gone I am lost
Nedh
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I am so sorry that you have lost your beautiful Sally, I know how horrendous you must be feeling, the pain is the worst ever.
As you say, the she was the one person who made you feel cosy and secure, itās so unfair.
I send you my condolences and love, please donāt feel alone, so many of us understand your pain.
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Nedh so sorry for your loss. I can sympathise with you on this. I lost my gorgeous beautiful late wife sue on the 1st February 2023.but sue made me promise to carry on fighting for life and not to give up.i have up and down days.always here if you need to talk
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I am so sorry that you have lost your lovely wife Sally.We can all understand the pain you are feeling.We are all thinking of you at this awful time.It is so cruel and unfair.Take good care of yourself.Please dont feel alone reach out to us on here and we will help and support you all we can.
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thank you all so much , I just cant stop crying and I am scared of the loneliness. Sally could not speak for the past week of care and barely opened her eyes so I thought I was better prepared but this had hit me light a freight train and feel like why canāt I handle this better when I knew she was dying, therefore it was not unexpected. My brain/mind is mush Thanks again for your support
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The lonelliness is so heartbreaking.Its been over 4 months since my dear wife passed so suddenly and its still so painful.We are all here for you on this forum.Always reach out to us when you want to.We may have all had different circumstances but we can all understand how each of us feels.Take good care of yourself.
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Nedh, I am so sorry, you have done a brilliant job of caring for your Sally. You really have shown your love, I am sure that she really felt your love for her right to the end. My heart goes out to you 
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thank you all so much, and yes this is only day 2, but I am a blubbering wreck. Had to take cloths to the undertakers yesterday , her favourite strip jumper and white jeans that I loved to see her wearing. Hope to be able to see her on Thursday this week. Thanks again.
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Nedh,so so sorry youāre beautiful wife has passed.My husband died at home, he stopped eating, drinking, and talking for a week before he passed.Like you,although i lnew the end was coming, the s hock was horrendous 
. The only thing i can say to you is she felt your presence and love,as i think my darling Ronnie did.He died on the 15th April this year,and the pain is still very raw.Cry,shout scream,let it out,we have all,and still have awful days .No one can take away the pain ,but we are here to listen.Talking about how we feel helps,we are all in the same boat.Thinking of you,sending 
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Nedh
Sorry to read this takes me right back I wish I could be back caring for my husband again even though it was hard and no sleep just to hold him again one more time I would do anything. You will howl and scream for her it will be raw and cruel 6 weeks on the pain is still the same I just canāt cope without him just want it to walk in .
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Thank you both for your help and support. Off to the funeral today to make the arrangements. Dreading it but as you all know it has to be done
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Iām so sorry gor your loss. My husband and I also used to go out on our motorcycles, me following and I witnessed him knocked off. Its heart wrenching, though on that occasion he survived. I lost him 22 months ago to a medical emergency, the same one that took his own mum. We had been together 50 years. It seems in the early days that life will never return but somehow it has, although of course i miss him everyday. You are still in the early stages of grief and definitely in the right forum, where the wonderful people on here gave helped me so much to get through the stages and see light at the end of the tunnel. I find comfort in the saying āI didnāt get to spend the rest of my life with him, but he spent the whole of his life with meā.
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Retired 2 i can totally understand how you feel. I lost my gorgeous beautiful late wife sue on 1st February 2023.but she made me promise to carry on riding my bike and trike as sue knew i would give up.
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What a wonderful saying , I didnāt get to spend the rest of my life with him, but he spent the whole of his life with you. Yes to be repeated for sure . Thank you
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Hi Martin
I lost my beloved husband Roger on 23 September 2024. He had battled cancer so many times but this final time two horrible cancers took him away from me,
I just want what I know I canāt have - Roger back with me and pulling my leg.
Kate
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