My dad got I’ll last year 2 days before Christmas and then on new years eve he died. The build up to Christmas is so overwhelming. I’m terrified of how I will respond. I don’t want to relive the memories
So sorry for your loss. Grieving at Christmas is hard enough, but to have anniversaries tied up with that is an extra layer of grief. It’s my first Christmas without my mum. If it wasn’t for my children, I’d happily give it a miss. I don’t want to be wished a Happy Christmas and people expecting me to be happy. My mum did so much for us for Christmas over the years and made it so special. I don’t want to do some half hearted version of it.