I had my daughter on the 2nd of July mother was with me when i brought her in to the world and went home after and died in her sleep aged 46 recently I’ve felt very alone suffering from high anxiety i can’t go on this way
I’m so sorry to hear about the sudden death of your mum, just after your daughter was born. It is awful that you have had to cope with grief at the same time as being a new parent. That must be overwhelming for you, and it is understandable that you are suffering from anxiety.
I wanted to let you know about another user called Hels83, who lost her mum three days after having her daughter. You might find it helpful to read her experiences and maybe post a reply to talk to her more: http://support.sueryder.org/community/coping-death-loved-one/struggling-get-over-my-mums-death-new-baby
It sounds as though you are feeling very isolated. Do you have a good network of other family members or friends around you to support you with the baby? I’m glad you’ve found this site - I hope it helps you to feel a little less alone. Have you had any other sort of bereavement support, such as counselling or a support group?
You can ask your GP to refer you to support services in your area, or contact an organisation such as Cruse Bereavement, who offer a helpline, email support, face-to-face support with a trained volunteer and local support groups: 0808 808 1677, http://www.cruse.org.uk