I’m 28 and my mum died 5 weeks ago from cancer. I was so so close to my mum. She was my best friend I saw her and spoke to her multiple times a day and lived with her for the final 9 months of her life after initiating divorce from my husband. I’m so lost, we had the funeral last week and it’s only now things have hit me. Up until now I had been busy organising her affairs, sorting the funeral etc.
Now she’s gone my life feels so empty and I just don’t know how I can cope with it. I feel so lonely. My step dad kicked me out a few days after she died, all my bags were packed and room cleared out. He told me I should go back to my house with my ex, we had numerous conversations about why this couldn’t happen. Other members of his family also have turned on me since. I have been living with friends ever since and finally found a place to rent in a town about 80 miles away that I was planning on moving to once my house had sold and I am done with uni. I feel I’ve lost more than my mum at this point and my whole family dynamic has been turned on its axis.
I just can’t cope with these feelings and don’t know what to do. I have sisters and I speak to them and see them but nothing is like speaking with my mum and just feels pointless.
I’m sorry for the rant, just feeling very lost, alone and scared.