My parents have been married 55 years. Heard two days ago Dad doesn’t have long. Going to visit soon. When I spoke to him on the phone he was crying because he doesn’t want to leave my mum behind. I reassured him we’d look after her. It will be a massive change.
I’ve lived a lot of my life away from my parents due to unresolved emotional issues with them that they won’t look at. I love them but have had to protect myself. They can be hurtful as individuals. I do look at the good as well but I lamented with a dull ache for a long time about being distant from my parents and brother due to not feeling seen or understood. When we are all alive on the planet and we cannot truly hold each other, it seems like such a waste.
Ironically I feel these times dissolve family irritations and what’s most important gets to shine through.
I told him I love him and he’s a good man.
There are lots of unknowns about when he’ll go, what that will look like and how my mum will process this all.
It’s weird to turn up at work carrying this chapter of my life. So here I am and I don’t want to talk about it to anyone I know.
Hey, I lost dad in August. He was palliative for nearly 2 years so understand the difficulty of travel and seeing them from time to time. If you want to please feel free to private message me or continue on here. It is very difficult to navigate the news and having to continue as the status quo in the limbo land of waiting for the loss whilst the person is still living. Im proud of you to have given reassurance with the inner turmoil with your relationship in the past but ability to try and support him through this time
