I’m sorry if people reading this can relate and it upsets you, I just really need to talk to people. My dad passed away an hour and a half after his 71st birthday, we all had to watch him suffer, it was a brain tumour so he lost most of his speech and couldn’t walk at the end but it’s those last hours that haunt me the most, he had a seizure for 5 hours and vomited up blood about a dozen times, I just keep reliving it over and over in my head, I’m really struggling with that amongst many other thoughts and feelings
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I am so sorry Jane you’ve had to experience this. My dad had a brain tumour but passed away from sepsis in the end so he didn’t get that bad with the tumour so I can only imagine what you witnessed and as your parent it’s just so horrible.
I know it’s so hard but try to replace those horrible images with happy memories, my dad was struggling a lot before he passed and I’m trying so hard to pass these awful flash backs to.
It’s so sad when these awful memories take over the great memories we’ve built up over the years.
take care of yourself.
Thank you so much for your reply, I’m so sorry you’ve had to see a brain tumour as well, my dad went into hospital with a blood clot but we managed to get him home where he wanted to be but that’s why he was vomiting up blood. I do try and picture the good times as well, I see him sitting in his chair and laughing, doing quizzes, he always did quizzes for family get togethers so Christmas was hard.
Ps I’m so sorry you’re going through the awful flashbacks as well. Thinking of you.