I haven’t been on here for a while, but feel like i need to talk to people again, dad passed in January to covid and his passing is just as painful as the day he left us. I can still hear his voice on the last call I made to him while he was on a ventilator in hospital I relive these moments over and over again. I miss seeing his face I miss seeing him sat in his chair. The pain becomes to much sometimes and I feel I can’t hold back my tears and just fall to pieces where ever I am. Seeing my mum broken breaks my heart and I wish someone could fix everything and bring him back.
There are evenings I cry myself to sleep because the overwhelming sadness hits me all over again. I wish I had got to say good bye to hold his hand to tell him what an amazing dad he had been to me.
I just feel so lonely and my heart will be forever broken, I have met some amazingly strong people on here. Keep talking to each other never take each other for granted
Hugs to everyone