I lost my mum in January at the age of 62 after a short battle with lung cancer- she was diagnosed in Nov 2015 but only told us a few days before xmas as it was thought to be treatable at first. Although it was so quick and such a shock for my family, I feel grateful in a way that my Mums decline was quite quick & relatively peaceful in the end as I know being immobile scared her.
The thing I am struggling with at the moment is a sort of lack of grief which I have read from others on here. I was with my mum when she passed but I don’t think I’ve really cried or broken down since that moment, not even at the funeral. I feel like I need to grieve but can’t really seem to start the process, I don’t know if anyone has any tips that have helped? I seem to find it hard to remember my mum properly at the moment as I just don’t seem to be able to recall a lot of memories from my youth which I find upsetting.
Work is a struggle, so many people ask how you are that I’m just used to saying I’m fine as saying you feel awful every time people ask is a bit of a convo ender! I think people assume once your back to work you are fine, in reality it is a struggle to get up for work at all.
My uncle (mums side) also died a week after her so I feel bad that I haven’t been able to process that in any way yet.
I’m glad I found this site though, reading everyone’s threads has already helped gain some perspective on what lies ahead.