I lost my brother to suicide about 7 months ago now. It was literally a massive shock and came out of the blue for all of us. He had 2 little children and ever since then any event, like Christmas, birthdays and today, Easter Day I just find absolutely exhausting. It’s like I don’t want to enjoy the day and I don’t know if it’s linked to grief or not but I struggle through the day. I just wanted to know if I was alone in this or not!
Hello @Doglover,
I’m so sorry for the loss of your brother. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m just giving your thread a gentle, “bump” for you - hopefully someone will have some thoughts to share.
Take good care,
Alex
Im so sorry that you lost your brother. I don’t find what you describe at all surprising. Such days bring with them a load of baggage and history of what we ought to feel/ought to do and I find the weight of expectations (including my own!) a heavy burden to carry on the day. The tension between how I feel and how sub-consciously my head is telling me I ought to feel is tiring and difficult. I think I may need to try to carve a new path for such days, but I’m not there yet. Hang on in there J