My soul mate of 40 years , passed away in front of me, which was all very traumatic 10months ago, I have been surviving each day really, not living, just going thru the motions, but starting to except that whatever happens he’s never coming back, The last week I have dreamt of him, which feels so very real, that when I wake my heart breaks all over again, as I know he is not here, It is really effecting my day as I’m so sad and empty, did or do anyone have this as I don’t want to not dream about him, but it really hurts,
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Hi @Ter,
I’m sure someone will be along to share their thoughts, but I just wanted to say thank you for so bravely sharing this with us. Keep reaching out. 
Alex
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Hi @Ter
My heart goes out to you, it sounds distressing, & utterly heartbreaking. I have had something similar since my mom passed, I dream about her randomly. When she first passed, it’s like, I would wake from dreaming, then it would take me a while to wake up properly to remember she had passed. I know it’s painful. Our loved ones will always be with us in spirit. Sending hugs of support.
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Ter, so sorry for your loss. 
My wife Jackie, sadly passed away in my arms at home at 9.38 on Saturday 8th March 2025. The last 3 days of her life were extremely traumatic for me and more importantly, for her. My only consolation is that she is longer in pain, but I am, like you utterly heartbroken 
I rarely have dreams, but I have had one or two since Jackie left this earth, however as soon as she enters my mind, I seem to force myself awake. To be honest, I can’t remember any context of the dream, I just dread it’s about her last 3 days.
I’m looking forward to the days or nights that I can just have happy dreams of Jackie
I had loved her since 1965 and we were married in September 1967.
You look after yourself
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