Hi, I’m in a similar position, it’s not been 1 month yet. My husband 52 and I’m 49. We have 1 son aged 14 - we had been together since I was 19 - I’m heartbroken
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The world feels still, the air too thin,
A hollow space where you had been.
The echoes of your laughter fade,
Yet linger softly in the shade.
I reach for you in dreams at night,
Your hand, your voice, your gentle light.
But waking brings the truth anew—
The world is different without you.
Yet in the quiet, I hear your song,
A melody that carries on.
Though parted now, you’re never far,
You’re in the moon, the sun, the star.
The love we shared, it does not die,
It lives in every tear I cry.
And though I walk this path alone,
Your spirit guides me, ever known.
So rest, my love, in peace, in grace,
Till I can meet you in that place.
Where time stands still, and hearts are whole,
And love’s eternal light will glow.
Please take care of yourself during this time. Grief is a journey, and it’s okay to feel whatever you’re feeling. You’re not alone.
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I’m so sorry for your loss and everyone on here does know how it feels, as we’ve been there too. Different circumstances, but the sheer raw emotions are the same.
The wave of sympathy you received, quickly evaporates. My sons are all married and have their own lives and i didnt want to worry them when they too were grieving. Friends are supportive, but its not their grief.
This site is invaluable as you can open up about how you really feel,without feeling you are a burden.
Sooner or later, the intense pain lessens and it helps to focus on all the good times, rather than the illness and end.
Just now its all raw, your emotions are all over the place and you will think some horrible things. Its all normal.
The last thing your husband would have wanted was for you to have all the pain and worry; he was your biggest fan. He believed in you and you will believe in yourself again.
You’ll never stop missing him, but his legacy lives on, your children are each 50% him.
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Hi Nikki77, I am so sorry that you are going through this too… I wish I could offer words of comfort but everything is still so raw. I feel like I am not just dealing with my grief but also that of my children and trying to make sure they are okay and that’s exhausting. My husband was such a positive and cheery person who would want me to be positive but I’m struggling to find anything to be positive about right now. I feel panic and sadness when I think about the future, people say try not to think too far ahead but it’s hard not to. I have found it helpful to read some of the posts on here as I do not feel so alone with it all.
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Yes you walk around with a smiiing mask on the outside as its just too hard to talk about how you are rwally feeling. Just take every day day, one at a time, just like me, but here is the place to talk if you do feel you can. We are here to listen
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