Family home

Can anyone relate? 2yrs on I avoid going to my mums as its like a wall shouting at me ‘he’s gone’. It’s just too raw to acknowledge dad isn’t there anymore. But I want to help my mum, and to appreciate his garden legacy. I just find it makes me so low, and then I don’t like to upset my mum or my kids…

I can relate, W8st,
After my dad died, we went back to being regular church goers, as my mum did too, we used to pick her up, she was always standing at her gate waiting for us. After she died, I asked my husband to drive passed our family home, in my imagination, I had a vivid picture of her standing there. I never went passed again, it was too painful. I know that it is different circumstances but in a way it is the same.