Hi All,
It’s been 4 months since I lost my partner and I feel that I shouldn’t talk about how affected I am about his passing to anyone anymore.
Some days I’ve felt like joining him as no one seems to understand the devastation.
I was asked if I regret meeting my partner now I’m not the same person!!
I wish some times I didn’t know what it was like to be loved so much.
I want to get better but I don’t know how to.
Yes, I don’t think I’ll ever recover so maybe my life as ended now?


They always say time is a healer dont they … i think thats true … but you have to go through a lot to get there i guess ? Just keep being kind to yourself - everyday … x

Hi @AlysonandSteve
Really four months is no time I’m sorry to say. Why should anyone understand when it’s not their grief it is ours and as hard as it is you will come out the other end from this. @Deb5 is correct we do have to go through a lot before we can see that light but it is there if you look for it.
You will imrove but it is still so early days. I thought I would get through it in about six months, how wrong was I.
I never felt I wanted to join him or my life was over but I kept him firmly in my heart and this helped.
Your correct we are not the same people. I have no idea why.


My husband of 34 years died yesterday. It is strange but I thought today how I am a different person already.

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I thought about grief being the price of love today. As a young woman meeting a soulmate I never gave it a thought. I wouldn’t want to have missed the love though so now I have grief. I held my husband’s body and felt it go cold and I know that I will never be the same person again.

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I can feel your pain in your words.
I know I’ll never be the same and I can’t even crawl through these days.
I wish more than anything I didn’t have to live with this pain, fear & agonising anxiety.
If I thought leaving this earth was easy and wouldn’t leave a trail of devastation I’d go in a heart beat.

I am grateful for this site as there are people who understand and take time to reply.

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