I know how you feel. My dad died last month a week before his birthday and I’ve been dreading today. Had to put a brave face on with being a father myself but could’ve done with shutting myself away.
Well done putting on a brave face. I do feel guilty that I haven’t put much effort into my husband’s fathers day…in fact the last minute DVD order I placed on Amazon didn’t even turn up on time but it all just got too much.
My mum died a year ago and that anniversary was recently, just a year after my dad so all in all, I think I deserve the odd day when my brave face is covered in mascara instead.
It is all very raw for you I am sure. So close to your dad’s birthday too. I have a son and he gets me through it all really so I hope knowing that your family love you has helped.
I am afraid many people here find Christmas particularly difficult. There is so much pressure on it. Last year the only way I got through was by having a holiday booked for new year.