Feeling completely lost and lonely

I recently lost my partner on the 15th December 2018, following cancer, he was 43 and im 38, he was my whole world with did literally everything together and now im alone, scared and want him back.

I’m so sorry it’s such a horrible time. To have lost your love is torture, please try and take some small comfort and strength in the love he wil have had for you, nothing can take that away x