Hi I’ve never done anything like this before. But my father passed less than two months ago, two days after my birthday. I’m an only child and I have spent the last four years driving back-and-forth between Florida where I live, to Arkansas where he loved to care for him. While I was in Pensacola I was running my massage therapy business for 22 years and trying to please everyone there. In Arkansas I was working and trying so hard at cleaning my dad’s house and taking care of everything for him.
I’m just having a real hard time having any desire to serve my customers and I’ve taken a leave of absence because I’m feeling pressured from them to get back to work, despite my grief and the COVID-19 virus.
My friends also think that I just need to get out of the house and go out and get it together. Pretty much none of them want to speak to me anymore because they’re used to me being the strong one and are not able to cope with me crying and feeling vulnerable. Thank you for listening