Ive been away for a while because i am struggling for words now, i still have flashbacks to the awful night mum died the young doctord just stood there while i checked to see if she had gone, that was after hours of her bei ng left unattended , in my eyes, not much bei ng done, it was a weekend, i cant watch anything on tv where people pass away i cant hear the songs from the funeral, im still full of anger, sadness , feeling hopless that i couldnt help her, we are coming up to the anniversary soon, nov 5th, the docs were even too busy to record the right date , they put 6th on death certificate, i was holding her hand at 11.45 on 5th nov. So many issues.
Hello @Butterfly22,
I’m so sorry to hear about your mum.
Whether it has been one, five or ten years since the person you’re grieving for died, coping with a death anniversary can bring about new feelings each year. You might find our support page on coping with anniversaries helpful to read.
If you need any extra support yourself, we’re here to help. As well as the community, we also have bereavement support information, Grief Guide and our Grief Kind spaces. You can find out more about our bereavement services at sueryder.org/support 
Take care and keep reaching out,
Alex