My partner/best friends funeral is today. This has been the longest and worst 5 weeks of my life. He died suddenly and unexpectedly, I didn’t get to say goodbye and I know today is when I get to do that but saying goodbye it will become all too real and I still can’t accept he’s gone. In my head it’s been just another normal week and I’ll see him the weekend when he comes down to visit me, my heart knows different, this big empty void in it. Just don’t know how I’ll get through today xx
It was my 21 year olds son’s funeral on Monday. Take one moment at a time, soak up the love and support of those around you and know that there are no expectations of you. Get through it the best you can. I understand the emptiness and who knew your heart can actually hurt? It’s unbearable. In love and support x
Thinking of you & sending love & strength xx
Just breathe through the day. I found myself extraordinarily numb during the funeral. Just make sure that you have support in the days that follow if you can as they tend to feel worse as the reality sets in. Take care
I am so sorry for your recent loss and on this site we all feel your pain.
I amazed myself at my Ron’s funeral. I stood up and recited a poem I had written for him and did part of the ulogy. I never cried a tear during the funeral or at the funeral wake afterwards in his favourite pub. I broke down the day after when reality hit me and I still can’t go past the pub where we had the wake and where he played pool without turning to look at the door.
We are in a state of complete numbness for these times to help our body cope. It is 3 yrs since My darling husband passed and 2 of them are just a blur.
Bless you. You will develop a strength you never knew you had.x
Thinking of you.
You are in our thoughts… It is very surreal… His love is with you… X
Thank you all for your kind words of support. I needed to say how I was feeling and came on here. Sometimes it’s easier to talk to people that have been or are going through the same as you.
It was a long and emotional day, listening and speaking to all his family and friends. I said my goodbyes though in my head he’s still here and I’ll see him soon and, my heart tells a different story and I know it will hit me in the coming days/weeks. I just feel numb at the moment but I take comfort in knowing I can come on here and open up. X
The days following the funeral have been very tough. One day I’ve felt complete desolation, the next life has seemed bearable but for only at an hour at a time. It’s almost like great waves of grief engulf me and I can’t stop crying. My feeling is you have to ride the waves. My friends and family are helping. I wish I could get better sleep and also reconcile wanting to fill my head with my son and yet not being able to as it’s so physically and mentally painful. Know that you aren’t alone. Sending love.