Hi all.
My name is Phil, I am 30 years old. 2 months ago on July 8th, my partner of 3 years died of sepsis, after spending a year dealing with Leukemia. In the last year of our relationship, we saw so little of each other due to her cancer and due to covid rules, I was never allowed to visit her. The last time I saw her alive was June 2nd, and since she died and the funeral I have had no idea what to do with myself.
My work has been awful with me, giving me very little time off to grieve, and choosing now of all times to become very strict on staff and start handing out disciplinaries. I am severely struggling, I can’t keep up the stress of my job, and they won’t pay me if I get signed off work. I am reaching out on here for the first time in the hope that I can get as much advice as I can as to how to cope. I am thankfully not suicidal, I have pet rabbits to take care of and rent to pay as part of a house share. So I feel I have a duty to keep going. However, I do not care about living at the same time. I just have lost the drive to find the point at the moment and it’s making things so much harder.
If anyone can help I would really appreciate it.
Best of luck to you on your journey through this dark time in your life… I wish you well and hopefully your find you way… Remember take it at your pace… It’s okay to cry to talk about it don’t bottle it up… You hang in there Phil