It was our Golden Wedding anniversary on the 23rd September,2017 but my wonderful husband had died three years before. Our sons paid for me to go to Jersey in the Channel Islands and went with me to help me through the few days they knew I would be heartbroken about. We were away five days and when the day of our Golden wedding anniversary came, I just kept looking at my watch all the time, then it was 11 am, the time I walked down the aisle towards my young 21 year old fiance who became my husband of 47 years, the choir were singing, then as we left the church as husband and wife the church bells were ringing. I kept it together and tried not to cry but did not quite manage it.
When we got home and our sons went to their own homes I just broke down and sobbed my heart out. People ask when do we get over the death of our loved ones and my answer is never, you never get over it, you try and live with it but never get over it.