My dad died in June after 7 years with cancer. He was diagnosed as terminal almost 2 years before he died. He was my hero & I worked desperately hard to find treatments for him, as he had a rare cancer for which there is no standard treatment. Nothing worked & I watched as he went downhill. I was there, with my mum & brother when he died peacefully. I have a good life-a job I love, a partner who is everything, wonderful family & friends, but i just feel this deep sadness & rage that doesn’t seem to be going away. Now it’s starting to affect me physically (Tiredness, struggling to fall asleep, stomach aches etc) and its making me so mad! I’d like to be stronger than this, but I feel like I’m letting myself & my dad down. I’ve had 5 sessions of bereavement counselling & was told all this is normal, but I still want to feel better & don’t know how. I suppose I’m just wanting to know if anyone else feels these physical symptoms & how you cope?
Thank you for reading xx