Hi Rosie1960
Yes it will be a month since i buried my lovely wife tomorrow.
I will light a candle, talk to her and burst into tears again no doubt.
I tell myself, before i step into our home that she will not be there, so i can dampen down that pain when i walk into a quiet empty space. Sometimes it helps other times not.
I will write a letter to her, and tell her what she still means to me, and how much i still love and miss her. Then i will sit and stare at the tv, not taking anything in. Grief is cruel, and rips you apart whenever it can.
I have pushed myself to acknowledge that she is gone, as i don’t want to continually be upset and disappointed and heartbroken when i get home, but it is very hard.
I hope you are doing ok. Sending hugs to you.