Grief

Losing a partner
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Hi Rosie1960
Yes it will be a month since i buried my lovely wife tomorrow.
I will light a candle, talk to her and burst into tears again no doubt.
I tell myself, before i step into our home that she will not be there, so i can dampen down that pain when i walk into a quiet empty space. Sometimes it helps other times not.
I will write a letter to her, and tell her what she still means to me, and how much i still love and miss her. Then i will sit and stare at the tv, not taking anything in. Grief is cruel, and rips you apart whenever it can.
I have pushed myself to acknowledge that she is gone, as i don’t want to continually be upset and disappointed and heartbroken when i get home, but it is very hard.
I hope you are doing ok. Sending hugs to you.

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Hi jrthorn,
Checking in to see if you’re doing ok today. It was hard for me on Sunday so I understand what you’re going through and feeling.

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Hi Beachwalks,
Hope you’re as well as you can be,every day is different isn’t it. The weekend wasn’t a good one so i kept busy with my dogs,such amazing company. Always here.

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Hi Rosie1960
Thank you for checking in. Yes it was a very difficult day yesterday. Lots of tears, lots of memories and lots of pain, but i got through it.
I am visiting my brother in Scotland, as i didn’t want to be on my own. Flying from Heathrow on Sunday was hard too, as i kept looking round hoping she would be there. Other than a couple of hospital stays we only spent one night apart in 22 years, but i felt i needed to do this on my own.
I hope Sunday went ok for you. It is so horrible getting through any of these important days.
Sending love to you.

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Hi jrthorn
I’m so glad you haven’t been on you’re own and so brave to travel on your own,i couldn’t do that. Hope your time in Scotland with your family is easing the pain a little. I just wanted to check in with you as i remembered the day. I go to bingo at a club in memory of Mark every Sunday,it’s not about the winning it’s about being with friends,the high light of my week. I take each day as it comes as I’m sure you do too. Take care and speak soon.