It seems that all I write is about complaining! I don’t want to become one of those people that all they do is complain - complain about anything and everything.
As I keep reading/listening to my books about grief one thing is certain, we will all grieve. As they say if you are in a long marriage part of that relationship will be grief. Grief is part of love! So depressing and so true
I moved to my new house.
I was lucky enough to have the house organised the way I wanted. I moved when it felt right for me . Across the road from my daughter closer to the the grandchildren
One month after been here I am not sure it is the right decision!
I miss where I was before- I had a couple neighbours that every so often we would have a cuppa together or we would go for a walk. Now I feel always alone
I miss the trees I had in the back garden !
My daughter is very busy with her work ( working from home) and her children couldn’t be less impressed by having me around
Might be a question of getting used to it .
In the long term it is a good idea because as I get older it will be harder to drive to see them
Sharing this with other people is a recipe for misunderstanding and to get “advice” how to lead life! “You will get used to it” “ you should be grateful “ etc etc
I am just tired and exhausted! This whole thing of grieving and living is exhausting !
Where I am now there are beautiful walks , lots of space and mud! And I go for long walks and feel like a lost wandering soul going around all by herself trying to get some peace
Here I am a Sadie that is so so tired so exhausted
I think I am in this dark mood because of the year - I find the New Year much harder than Christmas because as the year changes it might have the idea of new beginning new stuff happening and to me it is a reminder that another year passed without Jack and another year will happen without Jack
Thank you for listening