My Dad passed away in July around 6 weeks ago now from pancreatic cancer aged 60. He had been diagnosed stage 4 15 months previously. The deterioration happened so quickly at the end, I’m still trying to get my head round what happened.
I was quite involved in going to all the hospital appointments, trying to find out new treatments available and helping decide which treatment options to go for. Now I can’t help going back over all the decisions we made and which I was very much a big player in these being a doctor myself and now thinking in hindsight we made some quite big wrong decisions and would the outcome be different had we gone down a different path. I’m feeling so bad and guilty over these and can’t seem to get past it to grieve properly.
Has anyone else felt like this?