Don’t really understand why but as well as anger at my husband’s sudden death I feel guilty because I’m still around. I wonder how he would have done if he had lost me instead. I feel guilty that my children have had to suffer so much distress and that I can’t protect them from this even though they are now adults. I wonder if others have felt the same …?
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We all have similar thoughts in this horrible journey in the life we have left.
Today feeling so sad and lonely crying it has only been 11 weeks today.
I feel sad unhappy and upset i noticed couples today and that should have been us but it is not. I am somehow glad that i am left behind as i would not want him to suffer the pain i have.
Life goes on but i feel that maybe without him is something i dont want to do. The price we pay for loving someone i guess.
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Oh yes, absolutely. I don’t think there an emotion I haven’t felt in the last 7 months. I think the first few months, your body and mind are torn to shreds but slowly it does get better.
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Definitely felt the guilt, tends to come after the anger I feel towards him for leaving us. Then the guilt for the years he won’t be there for the kids. I think you feel every emotion possible in grief
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I think all these replies are helpful in different. ways and it is good to hear that there is hope that things can get better. It’s also getting my head around the idea that I will have to lead a different life and that the people in that life will not necessarily be all the same.
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It takes a while to realise that things are so different from what we all had.
I think it is getting used to my own company and not talking to anyone during the day and night is hard and very lonely. Im sure most people here understand this. I will probability volunteer during the day to help meet and speak with others to help with this loneliness.
Take care
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