I’m really struggling, I’m glad Christmas are over, I feel very low almost depressed and starting to think what’s the point of me being here. It has been over 7 months since I lost Marek on 18th May 2025, I been doing ok for most of the time, but just before Christmas I started feeling really low. Despite of my dad being here and having my dogs I just don’t see future for myself. All I can see is me being alone, I don’t want anyone else in my life I want Marek to be back, but since this in not an option, what is the point 
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What you feel is completely understandable and I think we have all been where you are at this moment. I certainly haven’t got any answers but I can tell you how I dealt with the feeling that life was pointless without my husband.
I saw the doctor and got help sleeping. Getting help with your feelings of hopelessness is really important I think.
I read about grief and listened to people on here. What I learnt was that it isn’t linear, there are calmer times, panicky times, times of deep sadness and that time is ultimately the only healer.
I channeled thoughts of my husband. The life he should have had and didn’t. What he would want for me. I push myself forward thinking of him and trying to honour his memory. I think that he would be so disappointed if he thought that he hadn’t given me the strength to survive without him. He was a lovely man and he would blame himself.
Lastly, I thought of the people still here who love me (and my cat!). For me, I could not begin to inflict the pain that I am feeling plus the trauma of them feeling they had failed me.
It’s a hard road we are on. It is a struggle. Use this site and also remember, time is the healer. Be kind to yourself…if you get up, get dressed and eat something…you have succeeded on that day.
Take care.
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