I lost my beautiful Mother nearly 8 weeks ago now, it’s gone fast but feels like it happened a lifetime ago.
I’ve started worrying about my own health as I still have pain in my heart. I did have a ecg near the beginning and it came back normal. But I still worry there’s something not right but maybe it’s a symtom of grieving?
I am also sleeping a lot more than usual and I never feel refreshed no matter how much I sleep, I kind of feel like my body is giving up in a way.
I am also worried about my loved ones getting sick and leaving me now, but I don’t want to think this way cause it’s taking over my life.
Recently learnt that a lot of people are passing at a young age out of the blue and this scares me so much, I keep thinking what if it happens to me or my loved ones?
I do think to myself I don’t want to be here anymore but I worry about leaving my family so that’s why I’m scared of passing suddenly.
I guess I’m wondering if this is a normal thing to deal with during bereavement? I’m so frightened and I probably don’t have any need to be.
I also get a lot of stomach upset and I don’t know why.
I have always had some sort of health anxiety but since losing my Mum it’s multiplied massively and causing me so much stress.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to give this one a gentle bump.