I lost my beautiful Mother nearly 8 weeks ago now, it’s gone fast but feels like it happened a lifetime ago.
I’ve started worrying about my own health as I still have pain in my heart. I did have a ecg near the beginning and it came back normal. But I still worry there’s something not right but maybe it’s a symtom of grieving?
I am also sleeping a lot more than usual and I never feel refreshed no matter how much I sleep, I kind of feel like my body is giving up in a way.
I am also worried about my loved ones getting sick and leaving me now, but I don’t want to think this way cause it’s taking over my life.
Recently learnt that a lot of people are passing at a young age out of the blue and this scares me so much, I keep thinking what if it happens to me or my loved ones?
I do think to myself I don’t want to be here anymore but I worry about leaving my family so that’s why I’m scared of passing suddenly.
I guess I’m wondering if this is a normal thing to deal with during bereavement? I’m so frightened and I probably don’t have any need to be.
I also get a lot of stomach upset and I don’t know why.
I have always had some sort of health anxiety but since losing my Mum it’s multiplied massively and causing me so much stress.