I lost my Mum completely unexpectedly less than five weeks ago and the pain is crushing. I always knew that when the day came it would be difficult, but I never imagined this intense pain. I feel totally and utterly heartbroken. I went out with my Auntie yesterday and we sat in a cafe and I felt so utterly sad. I had to do all I could from breaking down in tears. I’m in my 40s and I just keep thinking back to school and those who lost their parents . How did they go on. I also think to those people I know who have lost their children and I have no idea how they have got through this. At this moment in time I feel as though I will never be happy again. I’m so sorry for everyone’s loss.