Hi there, my name is Shell, new to all of this, I lost my Dad to oesophageal cancer on December 16th, just before Christmas and i am struggling with his passing, I miss him so much, i miss talking to him and just everything really, i have his funeral coming up on January 17th and i am so scared, its the finality of it all, i will know then that there is no coming back, in my head i know he’s gone but i still have those thoughts in my head that its not quite real, any thoughts to help me with his funeral coming up would help, as I dont want to say goodbye to him, I am hurting so much inside, I cry every day and my heart feels like its broken, my Mum passed in 2009 so i dont even have her around to comfort or speak to
Sorry I’ve just seen your post and was wondering how you are doing and if you’re ok? I hope everything went as well as a funeral can be. Hugs
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So sorry you are going through this. All you can do is take one day at a time, one hour at a time even. Be kind to yourself x
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Thank you the funeral is coming up this Friday and i am so stressed over it, im very anxious at the moment and not sleeping terribly well leading up to it, thanks for the message
I know it doesn’t feel like it at the moment but you will get through it. One hurdle at a time. My thoughts are with you. I hope all goes as well as can be expected.
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Thanks Brooke,
I feel in a trance at the moment like it hasnt really hit me properly, i know hes gone but my heart doesn’t want to let go
I totally understand.
You will carry him with you always x
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When my mum died everything felt different. I didn’t want to go out the air felt different and sleep didn’t come. My sleep hasn’t got much better but slowly slowly little things improve. It’s just getting through things stage by stage. I can’t say you will get better and when as this is a huge loss but just go with it no one can tell you when you will feel ok or if. Hugs to you now 
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I know it will get easter, as the old saying goes time is a great healer, its the thought of the funeral that is making me stressed, its so traumatic and i know the worst has already happened but it is the final goodbye thats hard
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I lost my Mom in October after nursing her for 4yrs. I totally understand how you feel. I know you wont belive it but you will get through the funeral. You far stronger than you think. I felt the same even on the morning i was telling my Sons that i couldnt do it…I did and im glad i did. It was hard but also needed…Just take big deep breaths… xx
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I read out something on the day and as much as I was dreading the whole thing it was what she wanted it’s called “warning” by Jenny Joseph and it summed my mum up to a tee… I miss her laughter and even her snapping at me just everything… just remember she’s watching you and you’re doing the last thing for her and I believe you’ll do her proud. It’s the worst but it’s for them eh? Hugs again x
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Sorry Him x
Thanks hun, i will always, he is always here with me
Thanks lovely, just trying to be strong for my kids, Dad was ill for 2 and a half years, he had always been terminal but was such a fighter and kept it at bay through sheer determination and strength with treatments, its only been the last 3 months that he has deteriorated and in the last month he was extremely poorly, he was so bad at the end, it broke my heart to see him, i know that it was the best for him but I’m still heartbroken
Hi I too lost my dad he passed away on the 2nd of Jan this yr two days before my Birthday.
We haven’t had the funeral as of yet . We are waiting for a date for it . I too am dreading it as you say it’s like the final good bye.
I have focused on Robins and like to think that they are my past spirit family looking down on us . Only the other day myself and my daughter had one follow us around the zoo on my late Birthday treat.
Straight away we both look at each other and thought it was my dad looking over us .
We will get through it slow and steady and in our own time . Sending you hugs and I hope one day your pain hurts a less and less each time and you get to smile more when you remember good days of past . Debs xx 
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Thats really beautiful that you think of Robins and I too love Robins and think of both my parents when i see them now, once you get a date I hope your Dads funeral will go as smoothly as it can. Its a strange feeling as I do feel relief as he is now at peace, he was fighting so hard for so long and held on for as long as he could with his cancer and couldnt go on any longer, my emotions are very up and down, i only have to talk about him and I’m breaking down, I think in time I will be able to talk about him without feeling like that and will be able to think of good memories, I think for me as its still pretty raw, I am focusing too much on his death and need to turn that around to think what a good life he had, I just think that will take time
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Thanks lovely, its very comforting to speak to people that are going through the same feelings, worries and thoughts as I am currently, its well needed at the moment to hear that it will get easier in time
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Take your time with it all, keep posting on here! we all know about loss and the trauma and the tears.
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Robins are lovely birds so peaceful looking. We’ve just been given a date it’s on the 7th feb. Seems so long away for us .
Grief has many forms and sneaks up on us when we least expect it. I hope you find comfort in your memories when you do and at your own pace . Sending hugs to you xx
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Thank you, i think the funeral will be the start of the proper grieving, it has been a fair time between his passing because of Christmas so I think everyone has been a bit in limbo, thank you for the support
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