I spent yesterday thinking I was doing ok. I’d found a way to connect with mum in my journal and I’d kept myself busy during the day. But boy did it hit at bedtime! The tears were streaming and I just couldn’t stop them. I’d been thinking about the funeral next week and saying goodbye and I just couldn’t cope. At that moment all the little acts of remembrance didn’t matter and the enormity of being without her forever completely floored me. It’s a new normal
I don’t want to get used to. My mum has been such a central part of my life that I don’t want to do it without her.
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I am so sorry for what you are going through. I feel your pain and your grief. It was my wonderful Mum’s funeral last week and somehow I found the inner strength to get through it and I had my family for support. But it was still so very difficult to cope with but you will do it for your Mum because she deserves the dignity and respect that you will give her. She will always love you and will always be with you in your heart and mind and no one can take her away from you
I’m still crying now, from just a few tears to waves of tears but you need to do that - don’t bottle your emotions up or you’ll make yourself ill. Try to be strong but I know it’s hard - you can do this! Thinking of you and sending love and hugs x
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