I lost my partner a little over a week ago, everything is still very raw. This man truly was the love of my life. And losing him has completely destroyed me, he was only 48 years old. It’s no age to die so young. I was with him when he died, and I am racked with guilt that I could have done more to save him. I tried though so hard. I’ve cried pretty much none stop, he’s on my mind all the time. All I want is to hear his voice and have a hug.
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I am so sorry for your loss It’s so recent and must be very hard to process You will cope be patient yourself it is such a challenging event Thinking of you J know from personal experience how demanding it is losing a loved one Look after yourself
My husband died 2 months from pancreatic cancer which had spread and i feel that i could have done more to save him
As you said, it is all very raw and at the moment the only thing you can do is to survive through this literal hell on earth. I’m at 4 months now and, although I had a bad day today, even I can see that I’ve improved in this short space of time. Be gentle with yourself. Take all the support you can and just take it 5 minutes at a time.
We all understand and we’re here with you and for you. 
My partner died in monday and i know exactly how you feel the what ifs the maybes the whys im just angry at the world right now and i am so lost without him i dont know how im supposed to cope or manage anymore he was my whole world my rock and now im alone and having to face life without him so i feel your pain big hugs x
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