I don’t know how to carry on without my husband. I was ready to go to him three days ago. I don’t know what to do.
I struggle every minute with surviving with out my husband. I really don’t know how to do it except by thinking that I would not want to cause any one else suffering.
I don’t know how long it has been since your husband died. It has been nearly eleven months for me. I to stop the beginning wished I had died with him. I coped for three months and then fell apart with the realisation that this is it. I’m alone. The pain does not go but it softens and you just get better at learning to live with grief. I talk to my H as if he were still here. He is around me in spirit. Most days I still feel like an anxious mess and don’t want to go out. I walk the dog. Only for Smudge I don’t think I would go out. My whole life has changed and it’s a life I did not want. It’s a struggle every day trying to live without him. I cry every day and hope one day I will think about him and smile instead of what I have lost. I will love him always x
My john passed the day after his birthday. He was 65. He passed on 16th February this year. I talk to him. I sleep with a cushion with his face on. I say good morning an good night. I do try but the tears just keep coming.
Bless you. I was the same in five weeks since my John left me. I too wish I had gone with him. I cry all the time. Feel lost no routine anymore. It’s so hard.