I just lost my mum to alzheimer’s it was horrible to see her suffering in the end it was a blessing. I was caring for her for years it always was just the two of us. I only have my dad who tries to understand and support me but he cannot handle it. My brother is no real help. I have my dog which helps but i have never lived on my own i don’t have any real friends who i can spend time with. I am so lost i just dont think i can do this without her. She was my best friend i just don’t see a future i am trying for my dog who is unwell if i lost him i couldn’t see how i would keep going. Any help or advice please.
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@Dreamingdogs you have friends here who sadly can relate to what you are feeling. There are lots of helpful resources and links. To care for a parent the way you have is admirable and be very proud of yourself, it’s traumatic to see what an illness does. Have you spoken to your GP? X
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I am so sorry for your loss, I felt your pain as I read your post. I lost my mum in March who I lived with and had cared for over many years. I also have a brother who isn’t much use and can’t understand the relationship we shared or the huge grief I’m now feeling. I can relate to some of how you’re feeling right now.
I don’t have the answers unfortunately but, as Charlotte said, we are all here for you and are going through similar pain ourselves. I have found that my grief is not so raw as it was in the very early days although sometimes it is still completely overwhelming and takes be by surprise when least expected. I don’t know how recent your loss is, but I have found those things to have helped me.
I have found writing a journal to be helpful and also reading messages and connecting with others on here is reassuring that I’m not alone and not going mad.
I’m so pleased you have your dog for company, pets are such a comfort to us. I am also considering getting a dog in the near future as it will give me something to focus on and care for. What dog do you have?
Your dad will be lost in his own grief right now but, hopefully, you will be able to support each other through this terrible time. Keep talking and posting on here any time, there is always someone ready to listen x
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Thank you so sorry to hear about your mum. For me its only been 3 weeks just had the funeral its hitting me more now as everything is done. The phone stop ringing everyone is moving forward and i am just standing still i cared for her for over 20 years and on top of that i have my own health issues so i can’t work too much time on my hands and i hasn’t thought about myself in a long time. Like you my brother has been no help at all. I don’t think anyone know the pain of losing your mum until it happens to you there a special bond if you are luckily to have a great mum. I would get a dog if i was you i have a jack cross called Eddie he keeps me going and the love they give is so precious. Alzheimer’s is the worst i have been saying goodbye to her for 2 years now. You sound like you had a lovely mum who like me was my best friend thinking of you look after yourself.
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Thank you for your lovely message i have spoken to my gp and was told not lot they can do and i should phone the samaritan for support i may do. I know i am lucky i had over 40 years with her. Its only been 3 weeks no time at all. Thank you again.
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@Dreamingdogs your GP has a duty of care to you and that’s not acceptable, medication isn’t for everyone but it can help and the GP can refer to see a councillor. It’s very early days for you but if you feel you are not coping there’s no shame in that please go back to GP 
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Your pain will be very the at the moment, 3 weeks is a very short time, especially when you have always spent so much time with your mum and been so close to her. I also felt worse after the funeral as I was so busy beforehand and then it felt so final, which may be similar to how you’re feeling now.
Like you, my mum was my best friend too and our bond was so close. My brother certainly didn’t have that bond, he has his own family and rarely saw my mum, so he has easily got over any grief he did have.
Alzheimer’s is such a horrible and cruel disease, that must have been horrendous for you to witness, but you were there for your mum throughout and cared for her, so you did absolutely everything you could.
Eddie sounds lovely, he must bring you a lot of comfort. I wish him a speedy recovery 
We were very lucky though to have such a special relationship with our mums and, although we don’t feel very lucky at the moment, hopefully in time that will bring us some comfort. Sending you love x
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